Okay, not really. I truthfully hadn't realized the time that has gone by with my last weightloss update. So I've been around the same area. I weighed in at home at 256.00 as of right now that means I lost eight pounds. Not bad if you ask me! But let me explain my absence. School has been SUPER stressful! Observations came in and I wanted to go ahead and head out there to get them DONE, which is completed as of TODAY! (WHOOYA!) And it conflicted with my going to Weight Watchers meetings. Last Wednesday and this Wednesday (today) I had observation until about noon, which is when the WW meeting is and I had already missed all that work, so I opted to go ahead and not go. I haven't been keeping up with my points, but I haven't gone to eating horribly, or even badly... no weight gain. Today I'm starting to keep track of my points again and am starting full force right now. I'm trying to work in some walking time with myself and possibly my precious babygirl to join me. I'm not so much thinking about doing a MAJOR workout, but just doing SOMETHING will be beneficial. Then I'll already have that time set aside for it. But let me just say it might sound like I'm slacking to the passer by, but let me break down all the things my life consistes of and then what I've accomplished is quite a feat! I have to work 20-25 hrs a week, attend 15 hrs of school (not counting studying and school work), I have to take care of two dogs (alone during the week) which believe it or not takes up quite a bit of time, then add in that one of them is 1 and LOVES to play so she aggrivates and irritates you until you play with her, normally not a big deal but when you're in the middle of school work it's quite distracting, then add in visiting with friends and family (I love them all I have to spend time with them!) and my hobby (crafting) then the blog(s) that I'm trying to keep up with, OH and that dang addicting game Farmville on Facebook, then researching things for my hobby and trying to find time to talk to my sweet hubby, then planning for the next semester of school, and trying to cook and eat healthy all inbetween... I'm doing a DANG good job at balancing it all. The difference this semester than last I would say is I'm not so analytical. Shocker I know! You'd think this is analytical... but compared to my previous semester it's no where near it. Matter of fact I'm more likely to do something rather than ponder about it for weeks only to give up the thought entirely. I don't know completely why this change has happened, but I don't think it's worth finding out either. I'm happy where my life is headed and can't wait till I read ALL of my goals. Weight loss is about the biggest one, and will take the LONGEST to achieve! I'm determined though!

And more good news... I started adding more water into my diet. I had my husband start to ask me in the mornings, "Have you had your water yet?" which 1) reminds me I need to try and drink more water, brining it to the front of my mind and 2) keeps me reliable to my plan to have a glass of water before my diet soda! So I'm working towards it, slowly but surely I'm getting there! My mom said she could tell that I looked thinner in my face and in my stomache area. I feel better as well. I was able to, in the past week, able to get up between 5:30 and 6:30 at least 4 out of the past 7 days without being super groggy and mopy! How exciting is that! OOOHHH!! And I forgot to update about the walk!! My family and I did do the walk/run that was held last saturday and it was a BLAST! we had lunch at Ihop afterwards (they now offer TURKEY bacon!!!) Which I had of course, as well as my sweet husband. And turkey bacon is NOT bacon, but it's a great substitute when I'm craving it. Oh how different my eating and going out habits are compared to six months ago... it's crazY. So I've been struggling with walking lately. I've gone for a walk three times in the past week and a half and my shins are KILLING me and feel like they're about to break in two after just 10 min of walking! How crazy! I can't stand it! I'd go longer if my shins just weren't hurting so bad. So my friend has challanged me to walk more often, which I'm trying to work into my schedule. I really want to be able to do better at the next marathon walk that I do. I'm not going to do these marathons for competition but I really felt great after doing it on Saturday. Now when I got home my hubby and I took a nap that was suppose to last for a hour, but ended up being three :). I accidentally (for real) set my alarm for AM instead of PM. Anyways, if anyone is debating on whether to do a marathon or not I HIGHLY recommend it! Even if you just do the walk part until you can make it to the run part I highly, highly, HIGHLY recommend it!!! I guess I've written a novel and will leave you be.

This was on the yahoo top 30 thing they do. It's about the only "research" I on topics posted on the internet not realted to crafting, but this one caught my eye and I thought I'd sare! Thanks for your support!!!
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So I didn't go to weight watchers, this was because of an upset boss and I didn't want to give him a reason to gribe with me taking over an hour for break, so I decided it was in MY best interest and health to not go. However I did weight myself this morning and I was at 255.9. I lost 2.3 lbs. How EXCITING. I was certain I had gained and had gone backwards on my weight loss journey, but no, I have not! I've lost some weight. This is very motivating and proves that I am actually changing my lifestyle. If I wasn't I would've gained for sure! So I'm pleased with my choices over the last couple of weeks. Very pleased indeed! I think I was moving around alot through out Spring break, I mean my husband and I were all over town every single day. Only one day did we not do anything. I'm very satisfied. So no more writing, this is just a quick update with my current weight! Can't wait for more to come. BTW I ordered the new Flip Ultra HD to record videos and take pictures so next Saturday when I do the walk with my family I'll take photos and/or videos and post them to share my experience! Thanks for supporting me!

So the week off is taking it's toll. I haven't weighed in yet, but am going to Weight Watchers. Last week I had tempting chocolate just laying around from a "birds nest" I made for my family and never threw them out so guess who kept snacking on them all week? I forgot I was doing it until last night I found myself being drawn to them continuously... so I threw them out. Quite literally, I threw what was left in the trash. Even after they were gone I caught myself craving them, and yes I had enough will power to stay out of the trash can!! I've been eating what I know to be healthier foods but I haven't been keeping up with my points this week. Now it doesn't help that I went from a week plus with my husband every second of every day and friends here and there and this week, due to schedule difficulties and the dang rain, I haven't spent much time with anyone. Not yesterday Richard's phone got drenched and thus phone is now dead and we had to talk on the computer last night, but not all night. He didn't get home and out of the shower until about 9:30 pm which is about the time we try to be in bed by and we head to sleep around 10:30. Last night however due to our lack of conversation all day we stayed up until about 11:30, and I had to wake up at 6 this morning. Did that happen? NO! I woke up around 7 and only had 15 min to get ready this morning. But I got everything done. I'm just a lucky dog that I took my shower last night and I'm not all nasty today. I'm very discouraged. Mostly from my emotional state at the moment. I really miss Richard and I feel lost without being able to get ahold of him. It's quite frustrating. I wanted to cry so many times last night but resisted and now the feeling has transfered into my morning hours. It's making my day dull and somewhat tragic. It's like when I start PMS'n and I want to cry at everything. However, it is not at the point, I'm just genuinely upset which makes it worst! I can't justify it and get over it. I try to come up with a reason why I can't get over this and nothing. Normally I just tell myself I'm being irrational, take a minute to an hour to do my own thing to vent (sort of like I'm doing but mentally) and then I'm fine. GRRRRR!

Oh a less personal note, last night I took my time at the house to make cards. I made 12 in total and could've done more had I focused on the cards more rather than the TV. Noel was entertaining and came to love on me a couple of times. She's so cute! But I did find that as I was enthralled into the card making I didn't feel as much of the need to snack. When I got distracted watching TV and sitting back to take a rest or when I went to get a refill in beverage is when I started to want to snack... and I wanted to snack on everything. It's that lonely, empty feeling. Some reason I think food will fill that void. And I know it wont. I feel better for just a second because I'm busy with something but then after about 20 minutes and that bag of chips is gone, etc. I'm lonely again with this feeling of regret which only makes me want to snack and eat more. I truly believe I can make my card making and scrapbooking a good alternative! I really enjoyed all of the creations I made and can't wait to have an occasion to use them. The next batch of cards I make will be for my teachers I'm observing! Which I have scheduled for next week and I CAN'T forget it!

Back to my point, after venting some more, I don't think I did well last week. I did well meal wise but with those chocolates sitting around I probably over ate. Damn those chocolates!! And damn me for buying them. I thought I could control myself, but it goes from, "Oh one or two wont hurt." Then you keep telling yourself that and by the end of the day you've had about 10 which ADD UP FAST! And when you have two different kinds around that's like 20, can't you just want that other taste after the first. And yes that one or two wouldn't make a big deal, if it stopped at one or two. Like I previously said they are not gone but the damage is already done. And I've been neglecting tracking my points and even though I think I'm staying well within them, there's no telling until I actually track it! And it would completely help if I was doing the water thing. I did it for about a week now it's no more. If you don't recall I had said I would drink a water before I'm allowed a soda. Well that definately died over Spring Break. There are no excuses. I'm just dissapointed in myself. I worked hard for weeks to change my habits and start this weight loss and in a week I almost destroyed everything I worked for.

I'm getting back on the horse! No matter how many times it throws me off! I'm sort of determined (oxymoron!). I want to loose weight it's a true goal of mine, but at this current moment I don't want to put in the effort. I'm going to. I have to. I set a goal, and even though I don't want to all the time, I have it. It's the same with simple things I set and achieve. I wanted to run a pen out (silly I know) but when we got back from our honeymoon I had this pink pen that we bought there and I used that sucker completely up! Took a couple of months but I did it. And last year about this time I was upset that I hadn't been keeping up with this daily diary My mom gave me back in 2008. It has 5 years in it, and is actually pretty cool. I was upset because I went MONTHS without writing in it and had lost a lot of what I did for the wedding during that time. But about a month before the Wedding I started writing again. And once I set my mind that I wanted to write in it everyday for a year... damn it... that's exactly what I've been doing! It'll be a year (with no gaps in writing) towards the middle of April and I'm really excited. It's a matter of taking it, literally, one day at a time. I wrote in that journal every day and if I missed a weekend or a day, the next day or the next time I wrote I had to back track my days to get it all right and to reach my goal. It's the same with weight loss and I have to remember that. No matter how many times I flake out or mess up I have to go back and get it right! Profound huh?! Who knew I had the answer to my problem within another occasion of mine. Another annoying goal I had set is to grow out my hair. At one point (about 3 or so years ago) I cut it all off and highlighted it. I hated it. It made my face look so round and chubbier so I swore I'd let it grow out and I still haven't cut it. I've gotten it trimmed but ALWAYS said "keep the length" and now I have my hair the longest it's ever been and I love it! So I guess anything's possible. I think it might have to do with remembering your goal, the hair cut, and not giving into temptation, the need for something different (or a shorter do). Just some thoughts. And now that I've written a novel and actually feel pretty damn good. A lot better than when I started writing, and have worked out some issues I do feel a bit more hopefull! I hope this helps or that it makes sense. I tend to ramble when I get into the simple act of writing. Another hobby of mine :). Have a blessed day and thanks for checking in on me :) :) :) :)

So since last Friday night I've been taking a small break from eating "right". I haven't completely given up, I haven't been tracking my points but I have been cautious of what I've been putting into my body. When we do find ourselves out to eat I look in my book from Weight Watchers and choose something low. I'm basically going by the rule book... sorta. I've eaten more points that is allowed in most of my days, but not too much over. I've been lenient but not going back completely to the way I was. It's been nice to ignore the counting and just kind of eat more so what I'm feeling and it's helping to make it feel like a "vacation" while we aren't leaving east Texas. Tonight we're eating a Taco Stack Up, and though with lean beef, it's not good for you. And tomorrow we're eating steaks, garlic mashed potatoes, green beans and for desert we're having the Great American Cookie Company cookie, it says "Happy 1 year" on it to celebrate our lovely 1 year anniversary!

Today I've found me quite hungry definitely while writing this blog and even though I could grab a bag of chips and plan to "just snack on some." Everyone knows it doesn't end with that "some". So I used my awesome food scale to weigh out one serving and just ate it! Then if I still needed more got one serving more than judged it from there. And I've been trying to drink some liquids to help make me feel fuller... at least for a while. So I've been doing well even in my badness.

Also today I planned what I'l be having for lunch and dinner all week next week. It'll be pretty easy every day next week to get back on my eating right kick. I figured I'll need a bit of help to get me to back to my limited eating and staying within my points each and every day!

I've been doing a lot and trying not to do a thing! Last wednesday when I weighed in they said I gained .8. Then I weighed at my friends house and it said I lost like 3.2, then came home and decided to weigh again to see how much my sweat shirt weighed and it said I lost 1.6. So I haven't a clue what to think about what i did last year. However the good news is this week is my "staycation" and I HAD made the decision to be more loose with my eating. Then when it came time for me to be "loose" with my eating I couldn't. Well I could, but I kept thinking about what I wanted more and each time the answer was to loose the WEIGHT!! So I let loose some, but kept my portions small and didn't let loose completely. It was good and I feel mostly guilty for what I did that was bad, but it felt good to enjoy what I'm craving for once. I found this awesome book by "Hungry Girl" that has 200 recipes under 200 calories. And Richard loved most of them! So we're pretty sure they're going to be tasty! We're planning to go play some disc golf tomorrow... if it ever stops raining! Today we were ALL over town! We woke up and basically headed right into town, but not before I started to become worried about Noel, we I went to my eye appointment and I was LUCKY enough that they had a pair of contacts I could go ahead and use until I order and get my contacts. Then we ate lunch, got me some SUPER cute glasses (don't buy yours from JC Penny, they're super expensive! even half off of it all!) And then ran back out to the house, picked up Noel and let my sister use the shower since apparently my parents house is backed up or something, took Noel to the vet, well tried but couldn't find the freakin place, and when I called to get directions they were so rude and talked to me like I was stupid!!!, didn't appreciate it!, so went back to the hosue, dropped off Noel changed clothes to something more cozy then went to dinner at Olive Garden, then spent some more time in town, then eventually went BACK to the house!! So now it's relax time... oh what a week we've got today!!