Showing posts with label Weight Loss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Weight Loss. Show all posts
cscrapper
I worked out yesterday! It was AWESOME! I didn't finish, but I think I did pretty good. I worked out for about 35 minutes, though the last 10 I'd work out, then rest, work out, then rest. But I worked out! And I feel WONDERFUL! On my way home I was SOOO motivated! I wanted to do my hobbies, and workout more often, just SOOO motivated!! I really wanted to get to crafting, but I needed to cook me a dinner, but why not! It's not very often I'm this motivated to do what I WANT to do!

This morning I woke up without an alarm, or my sweet hubby calling me! I had plenty of time to finish my crafts (they had to dry) and to make my lunch, with a couple of extras, AND to even make it by my friends house and drop something off for her. I just feel right, and it's been awhile since I've felt this right! The only times I can remember feeling this in control of everything going on around me, school, work, home, friendships, hobbies, etc., is Junior year (most self-motivated and highest self-esteem I've ever known) and when Richard and I started to become serious and I was in the HIGH of being "In-Love". The euphoria of the first couple of years, that eventually wears off (always does) and you find your relationship is stronger than you EVER knew! Those are the only times, other than now, that I truly felt great about myself, what I was doing, and where I'm going in life. It'd due to working out, and eating healthier. But it's also due to finding a field that I'm truly happy in, that really challenges me mentally, a field that I truly feel motivated and energetic about the next two years in school. All the things I HATE about my classes are just minor annouances simply because I know it's necissary to get where I want to go. Maybe that's the same way I feel about this weight loss as well. All the draw backs, like having to work out and feeling SUPER sore the next day, and time and the patience it takes to eat healthy and eat when you're suppose to, and how you're suppose to just don't bother me as much because I know where I want to go and I know this is necissary to get there. (It helps I have a VERY motivating friend!!!)

Now my pondering mind keeps racing about my next workout and when it will be. Last night I lasted for thirty five minutes which is better than I'd been doing at home, and I obviously can make it to a reasonable point... I guess it's just one of those things I'll just have to suck up and do... LIKE HOMEWORK!! Which is waiting for my attention as I type... off I go.
cscrapper
Today my husband and I got in the Wii and Wii Active, and I started working out on the 30 day challenge... but I didn't finish. I got close... I think. But I got so aggravated cause well I set the stinkin' level to medium instead of EASY, which I obviously needed to be on. I got frustrated because I was trying to do a work out and the sensor wasn't connecting and wasn't saying I was doing anything.
Now I didn't just give up at one go... I was suppose to be running but it was telling me that I was going too slow... I was freaking running! But it kept telling me "Too Slow", that was aggravating! Then we were doing some biceps curls that it wasn't registering! So that just added to it, then the final straw, and I said forget it.
What I didn't do when I stopped was get some delicious ice cream, or any other sweet things we have around the house (and SERIOUSLY need to get rid of!). I really want to loose weight this time.

I've tried to loose weight dozens of times and never really accomplished it, then I guess I wouldn't call it "trying". So now I'm at it again. With Wii Active, a Bowflex I haven't used more than 3 consecutive weeks in over two years since we've had it, and weight watchers, which I really need to start attending the meetings.

But see I'm a master at coming up with reasons NOT to do something, or if I really want to do something I magically become a master at coming up with reasons TO do something. So in my first 4th attempt at Weight Watchers (the most recent go) I decided to stop going because the lady that was there the other 3 times was moving away and I now had no one that I knew at a meeting... which is such a sad reason, but the reason non-the-less. And I was continueing with the online tracking and then a reason came up for me to stop doing that as well and now well I weigh roughly 70 lbs more than I did when I a senior in high school... maybe more. Not a pretty site and not one I want to keep in my early 20's. I've always been over weight, but I've never been THIS overweight and I DON'T want to stay this way. This time HAS to be different, or I might ruin my life continuing down this way.