Wow, so I see that I haven't posted since Monday, too long I guess since I've written how I feel about my weight loss journey. Tuesday I was very overwhelmed and just didn't want to do anything, and I didn't. I didn't go to school, and slept for a total of 16 hrs from the time I went to bed the night before until I went to bed Tuesday night. 13 Hrs were sleeping, and 3 were napping on the couch. A lot of sleeping. And when I wasn't sleeping you think I'd be crafting or doing homework... NOPE! I watched the season of Bad Girls Club that was on and basically caught up on the whole entire season, a lot of silly arguing, but I guess it was entertaining enough to keep my attention most of the time I was awake. I did eat right, wasn't really tempted to splerge, surprisingly. Even when I was hungry I made some air popped pop corn. So I guess in my giving up stage ( I guess that's what it's called) I didn't even think about eating horribly. I just didn't want to do anything. Only a week though until Richard and my staycation!!! How exciting! And the Sunday after that week is actually our 1 year anniversary! Even more exciting. It's kind of like we're taking that time to enjoy a year together (well being married). It's hard to believe it's been 3 yrs we've been together, and even harder to believe we've been married for a year now. Nothing really seems like it's changed in our relationship! Well at first I guess it did, we didn't do the dirty as much, but now that I'm getting "me" on track that part has kicked back into gear. I guess the happiness of the relationship rests on the happiness of the woman in the relationship... lol. Great stuff!

So Wednesday's weigh in I lost .4 lbs. Only .2 away from a full fledge 5 pound loss. I'm not so much motivated to lose weight, but I am excited to see the weight gone! I don't feel as motivated as I did in the beginning but I'm not questioning what I'm doing. I'm still going to try and better the way and what I eat, as well as my work out routine. I REALLY have to get that going! I guess I could try and do a Bowflex workout while watching one of my shows. I do enjoy watching my shows a lot. I keep saying I'll work out, but unless it's prevalent on my mind I tend to forget, whether on purpose or accident I'm not 100% certain. Oh the troubles of losing weight!! After a talk with my Educ Psych teacher last night I have decided to start drinking a bottle of water and then have a diet soda. I haven't really been thinking about my soda intake since it's 0 points, but I do need to have more water and less sodas, diet or otherwise. So I'm making more steps, I'm not giving up, and still trying to reach my weight loss goal and overall lifestyle change. It's hard, but so much easier this time around. I just feel like I have such a good support system. Real people going through the same troubles and trials I have to go through and understand and don't give you advice when they've been thin all their lives and have never really have to struggle... There's just something calming and relaxing knowing others are struggling but still doing it just like you!! So keep to your weight loss goals even when you want to throw in the towel and give up. You'll be happier in the long run if you just stick to your original goals! :).