So I've been thinking (as usual) and I really believe this time it's completely atainable! I found several new drinks (Coke Zero, Cherry Coke Zero, Diet Cherry Dr. Pepper, Diet Big Red, Diet Sprite) that wont count against me while on Weight Watchers. This is magnificent! One of the reasons I kept failing is because I couldn't get rid of my cokes and cokes cost a LOT of points. Another thing I've come to realize is that I've been eating WAY too little! I haven't been eating enough and my body has gone into starvation mode. With those fiber bars I didn't feel the need to eat and therefore haven't been eating that much and as I noticed yesterday when I started calculating my points, I have not been eating enough! I have 35 points to eat each day, and yesterday I had 19 left in my day. On the weight watchers program you have to eat all you points in the day for your body to loose the weight in the right way, and apparently I haven't been doing that. I ended up being able to make up for the rest of the points at a friends house with a 4 slices of thin crust pepporoni pizza and I even had points left over from that. So I'm going to focus on my points for the next couple of days, which is the goal of week one being back on weight watchers, and we'll see how well I do at weigh in.

I never got around to making my lunch Wednesday night, but did have time to do it Thursday morning and for right now the bread I'm eating is okay, I'll have to go back to a different kind when I loose points, but for now it'll help me to take up my points. I also need to focus back on my vegatable and fruits. And my friend Heather is going to help me with the vitamins I need to be taking (cause I'm COMPLETELY clueless when it comes to those). And eventually I'll add in the oils I'm suppose to be getting in, and I just can't tell you how different I feel this go around with the weight loss. I'm not focused necissarily on the scale at this moment. I'm more focused on the healthy part of it all.

So with the motivation talk, I decided to list all of my motivations for loosing this weight. And when I get discouraged or I didn't do well one week I can look back on all the reasons I want to do this. And maybe with this and a few other changes I'll be 100% successful this time! (It helps having a support system! Let me tell you!)

Motivations:
1. To be able to more easily find clothes in my size
2. My self-esteem to be boosted
3. To be healthier for my husband and my kids (eventually)
4. To be able to wear the kinds of clothes and styles that I like
5. To wear high heels without my feet hurting as much
6. I would LOVE to run a marathon...
7. I would love to be able to run in general
8. I would like to finally be in control of my weight
9. I want to teach my kids to eat and be healthy
10. To go hiking, and enjoy it
11. To go biking, and keep up with my husband
12. To wear a bikini, and for it to look GREAT!
13. To simply be healthy!!
14. To NEVER hear "advice" from relatives who think they have it under control (and don't)

I'm sure there are more and I'll edit and post more later! But I would highly suggest making a list of the reasons you want to loose weight and keeping it where you can refer back to it when you get in the slumps.

Excellent day today!! Got invited go get a pedi!! It was awesome! It's been so long since I've just gone out after work and done something with a friend! It's so awesome! I'm just in girl heaven right now!