The meeting was about motivation, and well it kind of got me motivated. It wasn't just the meeting it was a couple of other things that lead up to the "defining moment." Such as, last night I watched "The Biggest Loser" and was contemplating the younger pink teams member. She was doing the work but not very dedicated to what she was doing, she wasn't putting any heart into her workouts. And I've been thinking a lot lately (as always) about why is it so hard. I'm always battling in my head to get fries, or not to get fries. To do good, or not to do good. And more times than not I choose to not do good, or to go ahead and have the fries. I justify it because I'm contemplating it. What I need to do, and I had come to this conclusion back in my Junior year in high school when I finally decided then to loose weight and not sit on my ass, is to not think about it. Simply do it. Sounds so simple, but that kind of conclusion is harder to come by than you think. I am implementing this philosophy starting now. My plan is to plan. To make a time where I work out, on Sundays (as Heather suggested) to plan out my meals for the week in advance so I don't run into one of my pitfalls of being SOOOOOOO damn hungry and just getting all the wrong kinds of food that take twice as much to satisfy me. I'm just going to do what I know is right instead of there being another option. I guess it's kind of the same for Divorce. If it's an option, then more times than not, the couple get divorced. Where for me it's not an option, Richard is stuck with me whether he likes it or not!! lol, though I'm sure he'd comment he wants to stay with me, the good husband that he is!

Back to the motivation. It was slightly ironic that motivation was the topic of the first day I decide, and actually go through with going. It's like someone was planning on me being there and knew it would help to draw me back and keep me on track. So we talked about motivation and the key behind it, why we were motivated, and how to stay motivated, and keeping positive thoughts running through your head instead of all the negative thoughts. They focused on changing the way you see success. Like, focus on the fact that you did well for most of the week, and even though you slipped up, keep your mind on the positive. I know that more times than I'd like to admit after I mess up I just give in. It's one of the reasons I couldn't stop drinking cokes for the longest times! Now it's not a big deal cause I have Coke Zero thanks to a good friend!

I had started my philosophy when I went to get lunch and instead of debating over whether to go ahead and try the Chargrilled Chicken Sandwich (which is pretty good!) or go ahead and get the Chik-fil-A Chicken Sandwich I just went with the Chargrilled. And instead of pondering on whether to get a regular fry since I was really hungry, or getting a small fry so it's better, I decided on a side salad. Then with the salad, instead of trying to decide on the HORRIBLE for you Ranch dressing, which I LOVE!!, I got the fat free honey mustard dressing. It's easier when there's not a battle. When there is only one answer.

My hunger level is less! I had that side salad which I think helped to satisfy along with the healthy chargrilled chicken sandwich and the vegetables on that, which are filling foods and help you to stay satisfied, so I believe that my choices for lunch were very well chosen.

Now to say something that I think needs to be said. There are only a hand full of times that some is blessed with someone in their life, and I've had a few really good friends who I would say are a blessing and my sweet husband who is also a HUGE blessing, but I think Heather is a blessing as well! She is more motivating than I think I could put into words, and she does so good at keeping me honest and from allowing myself to have that other option. And it's odd but I feel kind of like she's always been a friend to me. There's not that window of awkwardness that I feel after making a new friendship. And that's only happened with a hand full of people for me. Okay no more novel writing. I'm being paid to do some paper work and I guess I should get to it!