So like I said, two days down... but what is that in the whole scheme of things?! During my try's of loosing weight throughout the years I've always just kind of thought well I don't want to give up this chocolate thing or that fried thing, but I really have to change the way I eat for the rest of my life or it will NEVER stick, the weight loss I mean. That seems so impossible!
In my ignorant stage of life (which is basically from birth till who knows) I get what I want. In watching my parents and other people live, I observed that people always want stuff and for some reason (which I never understood) never gave into their desires. It blew my mind. How could you not take what you want? What's the point in living a life of things you DON'T want? I couldn't make sense of it and at that point I decided I deserved and was privileged to what ever I wanted (and could afford). And in that mind set I became very high maintenance which was revealed to me as I was planning the wedding and could ONLY have things my way. And no I wasn't a bridezilla! I was quite nice and did everything myself so there was really no one to yell at. But anyways, high maintenance. I've known that I'm picky with food. I wont eat anything I don't want or re-heated, or certain pre-frozen foods, or certain vegetables, and well what's left? Bad food that tastes REALLY good. So for the past 4 or so years I've been eating only what I want nothing that I have to eat, or have to do even.
(Now you can be witness to one of my revelations) I just realized that I don't even do things I don't want to do. I don't work rather quickly or with purpose, I don't get up in the morning and get ready. The most I do in the mornings is take a shower, take out the dogs, get dressed and brush my teeth. That's about it. I don't work out, because... well I don't want to. What a revelation, I think I'll ponder on it a bit. But I've stayed away from sweets and I've tried to plan for better eating and I've been trying to come up ideas to help me complete my task of loosing over 100 lbs this time. One that I came up with was to have more sides with smaller portions. So you have the illusion and possibly the reality of eating more with less points (weight watchers) and feel fuller... hopefully. My husband and I plan to get some things at walmart this weekend to make this more possible even while I'm at work so that I stay on track at all times. So I'll let you know mid next week if it's working to help keep me satisfied.
Cause isn't the one thing that ruins our dieting attempt the feeling of always being unsatisfied?! Well it's my reason anyways. So I'll let you know but for now I need to start doing things I don't want to do. Such as get my happy butt to work. Bye for now!
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