Haven't been feeling so well, went to the doctor and they prescribed me Steroids... I will NEVER take those suckers again! The first night I took it I woke up 30 min after going to bed, then an hour after that, then again at 3 am. And at 3 I couldn't go back to sleep! So I got up, turned on all the lights, and you know that's when it really means time to get up, and died my hair. Well I could've done homework but completely didn't feel in the right state of mind, and while doing that watched Julie and Julia, not a bad movie, but not the best either. Then I got ready for work, actually made me some breakfast, and then went to work SUPER early. With these steroids, which I only took three of, and my brain has gone completely loco! I keep saying things I normally wouldn't, or going way outside my comfort zone. It's almost freeing, and yet unsettling! I don't seem to have control or that voice that tells you, you shouldn't do something so instead I do it, or say it. Like in class the other day I literally asked a kid, "Are you social?" completely implying he's anti-social, and though it started up a conversation and we chatted for a bit, I was embarrassed of how rude I sounded, though I don't and didn't feel the need or the urge to apologize. It's like the steroids are shutting up my shutting up side. Like it's allowing me to be more open and accessible to things that I regularly wouldn't be. Maybe a better way to explain the way I feel is that I feel less self conscience. I'm less aware of the absurd things I might be doing/saying, or maybe less aware of the way they may seem absurd. Anyways, I basically keep saying things that I think normally would steer people away from me, and well, I just don't seem to care.

Also right now, my weight loss is backwards. Well I'm not sure that I've gained weight, but supposably steroids make that happen! So this week if it does, I'm so blaming it on the DOCTORS!

On another note, completely unrelated to weight loss and "Losin it big" I'm doing well in my classes and surprisingly staying up to date with all the hoopla related to them, such as reading and homework. I've also been more motivated and driven these last two weeks. I just feel different about this semester. Now I need to take this same dedication, multiply it by two and put that same dedication towards weight loss... again. I want to say that my backwards slide is due to the sickness that has taken over, literally, my whole family, but I would be lying if I said it was ONLY because of it. I'm lazy, mostly, which is why I'm here and since I have a reason, I use it... Oh how I dislike knowing the faults of myself.

Anyways, another topic my hubby comes home today!! I'm really excited! One day, when I finally get a camcorder I'll record my darling dog and how excited she gets when you say "Is that daddy?" So adorable! She starts barking and stares at the door... you'd have to see it! Also when she's chewing on her bone, and playing with her toys sometimes she'll keep her butt up in the air... I'll show it! It's the cutest thing! Anyways, I'm gonna let my novel here take a break and spend the next hour or so waiting for my adorable husband!! I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIM!!!