I don't know what my deal is. I even went clothes shopping last night and meant for it to only take a second, it took much longer! I was displeased with everything I tried on, I looked horrible, and all this ugly, pessimistic thoughts devoured my conscience! I went ahead and purchased some items cause I have a date with my hubby tomorrow night and wanted to look special since it's our first DATE in quite some time! But I felt completely discouraged. Then I went to dinner with my parents and some friends (my family is pretty close) afterwards and ate half a chicken marsala meal (my hubby eats the other half, we always split when we go out to eat) and I'm just going backwards! I didn't work out any day BUT monday! I have every intention of working out every day I was suppose to this week... and I don't do it. I always get home around 8:00 pm to around 8:30 pm and I'm tired and we try to go to bed round 9:00 to 9:30 because of my weight and the caffeine I take in every day mornings are difficult for me! So I have to have my 8 hours of sleep every night! And so I get home late and make the excuse that I don't have the time, or I'm too tired. And last night I had a migrane. Which I actually did, but I should've just worked out. If there's an excuse man I jump on it!! I'm trying to convince myself that there's not one and that the moment I get home I'll take out the dogs, fix my dinner (or get it started) start my hair dyeing process then while it's changing colors I'll work out. But I'm not thinking I'm going to go through with it.

I wish I had someone to keep me accountable! So I have called Jenny Craig and I've looked into getting their food system. I've been on Weight Watchers, well before. I still haven't gone to a meeting since the other girl left that I liked (like early December late November) and I've gained back the weight that I HAD lost on there. Anyways I have this funny idea that Jenny Craig will help me learn how to eat. I'll let you (my ghost fans) know how it ends up working out for me.